Episode 3 - Part I - Unexpected Catastrophe

This is a story of an incident I went through, I probably have never told this story even to myself.  It surprises me sometimes when my own mind opens up to me and lets me know a whole new side of experience. My Mom always says, something bad happens to you, then definitely something good will eventually turn in. She has ways to explain things to me which would become a part of my character, my personality, become a part of me.  But when things go wrong, we tend to go after it! Damn Human Nature. What I am going to share with you is a Chronicle of Coma, a True Anecdote, but with a Twist and catastrophe added by Ranjan.

   Jan 10^th : 00:40 Hrs - My body had shut down completely. All brain cells paused, with no electro chemical activity, nothing functioning but luckily I WAS breathing. It was a Complete Blackout, as if all of my body had staged a protest for putting it through all sorts of pressure and it had boycott from doing their job.  Inside my head it was blank, darkness. I could feel nothing or think nothing. Its like you can feel Darkness the way you felt light. I can’t really explain to you how it was being unconscious, but it was like nothing!! Yes, I experienced Nothing.  And all of a sudden, everything came up, Blood started flowing, one hard breath and I gained consciousness, then I slowly opened my eyes, there was so much of light, so much of noise. Suddenly the world had come back from a Pause. I was lying down on the bed, the first thing I saw was a blurry white roof, I could barely see. My vision slowly was turning from Blur to clear and the next thing I saw was, Veena, standing there opposite to the bed and crying. Crying very hard. I saw lot of tears in her eyes, I guessed something has gone wrong and her nose had turned super pink. Well she didn’t look pretty at all for the first time. I had no idea why she was crying. The last thing I remember was - we were in the backseat of the infamous “Ranjan’s Car” he was driving us home while I was looking into her eyes. I had no memory of what happened after that, and the question that struck to me like a comet was; what the hell happend? I couldn’t recollect anything. I really had no idea! I remember talking to Veena and Ranjan driving like a Maniac. I could guess there was an accident, if I approved it then there would be more questions in my head, I wanted to be sure. So  I asked her “Why are you crying?” She still kept crying. I was like, is this a dream, am I dreaming? Something unreal, I should wake up from? Then I asked again “What happened?” she was about to say something and I saw a Nurse take her. Nurse? Wait a minute, Where the hell did a nurse come from? Then  I saw a fat dark guy standing near my head, holding a thick white cotton on my right side above my temple near the ears. He told me “you met with an accident” . . I guessed, ‘ I am in a hospital’ the guy I was talking to was the Fosterer (male nurse in Indian Terms).   I was shocked,  I could hardly breathe. I asked him “Is she alright” He said “everybody is fine, you just got a small bump on the head” That’s when I felt something moving under my neck at the back.

    Veena came back, and she was still crying. I asked her “Are you okay” she replied “Yes I am fine, you please rest” The feeling of something crawling continuously was bothering me. It was like something warm was moving underneath my neck towards my collar. I tried hard to move my hands, I couldn’t, my own body refused to help, as if they were tied from my spine, somehow I struggled and reached out towards my neck, I touched at the back of my neck and saw it was blood. The guy holding the cotton pad was not observing there was a crack in my skull that had left some blood flowing.  I told the fat guy to hold the cotton on my head properly and reduce the pressure he was putting. He realized that the huge cotton pad he had kept has been completely drenched with Blood, so to change it he lifted the cotton pad and fountains of blood just sprung till my feet and till where veena was standing. She saw that and started crying more. The Fosterer changed the cotton pad, put a fresh new one and it started getting soaked in blood. The pain was unbearably excruciating. My body shut down again, completely blacked out. I felt unconscious again! At least I was happy of one thing, - Veena seemed okay at that time, she was standing and she was fine.

      The next time I opened my eyes, I could hardly blink, hardly think. I was so surprised – a witty me and turned to such a wimp? C’mon this can’t be me, what’s happening around here? Why am I not able to move my body, not even fingers? Why am I feeling so thirsty and not able to ask for water? I couldn’t even gulp. I wanted to say but I didn’t have any air left inside my chest to bring out a voice. Did I really meet with an accident? The part of meeting veena and holding hands, looking into her beautiful eyes was it all real or was  I dreaming? I saw some 6 guys dressed in white aprons looked like doctors all around me. And one guy started asking me questions “What is your name?” I assumed he is the doctor.  I knew my name, I just couldn’t say it. I guessed I was in the operation theatre with the big round light right on my head and they were stitching the skin on my skull back. Finally I told him whats my name,  when he asked me for  a second time, that took a lot of strain and effort. I thought that would be the end of his questions, a second question popped up – he asked me “What do you do?” I didn’t know what I do? The thought that came to my head was What do I do? What do I want to do? I want to see Veena, I want to go back in time and stop this from happening, I want to go back in time and erase what just happend. Well, guess what, I blacked out again with that thought.

Jan 11 4 PM, I woke up, I was in ICU, had stitches and a huge bandage on my head. I had lost a lot of blood. I had some tubes popping out of my left hand and a bottle of blood and drips connected to it. I was wearing some green long coat which other old patients in the room were wearing. Veena and Aly, Pavel, a couple of other Office colleagues were there.